Tuesday, October 18, 2016

dragging

I've started to write this post three times over the past week and a half, but haven't known what to say.

I would just like to stop being constantly exhausted, sad, and stressed.

Not sleeping properly, not eating properly (all fast food and convenience food since the flood a few weeks ago). I want to sleep in my own bed and have my own space again. I want my car back. I want my health back. I want to move back to the north shore.

Can't control any of it, so I just keep telling myself it will get better....  to be honest I don't always believe myself on that, but what else is there to do?

update: There seems to be a pattern. The depression comes roughly 6 weeks after each increase in the meds. I don't know why it takes 6 weeks to hit, but that's what it seems to be. The good news is that it passes. The bad news is that I'm now at the highest dose so if it doesn't "work" I have to try a different med, starting all over again with new side effects. :/